As I stood on the edge of the pier my body was tense and sweat dripped off my hair. There was a strong smell of burning rubber in the air which made my eyes water. The tall chimneys shadowed the damaged ground leaving me with a feeling of despair and anxiety. I looked down into the strong currents of the contaminated river below. Thoughts started entering my mind do I decide to end my life or carry on living alone? The smoke above acted as a blanket stopping the majority of light coming through. The smoke gave me a sense of security but that wasn’t enough. It was dark and dormant with an eary silence. Above the lifeless, derelict buildings the gigantic birds flew swooping in between the chimneys and shrieking that demanded my attention. These were once the birds that were on society’s side. The thought was always in the back of my mind, why did I survive the attacks and no one else, there must be a reason?  I stood there for a while lost within my thoughts and emotions. I decided to walk back into the building behind me and settle down for the dreaded night. I had set myself up a small bed and stored some of my personal belongings in a corner of the room. i had food and drink but the amount was scarce. It would last me for about 2 more days then I would have to find it somewhere else on the island